Two months sober but still feeling like I want to

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#1

Two months sober but still feeling like I want to escape reality. Is this normal? Going through major family trauma.

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#2

Ya, I drink because I’m an alcoholic. I also have causes and conditions.. that’s why I need support to keep the plug in the jug. My first escape as a kid was reading, then boyfriends… then my true passion booze!!! I use healthy things to escape today as I learn how to live and feel.

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#3

Learning about the sober selves is both exciting/anxious at times, guess it depends on the day! Good luck on your search. Glad you’re here!

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#4

Thank you

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#5

The alcoholic mind plays tricks on us. That portion of the mind remembers the temporary pleasure we got after a drink and if we have just one, just one mind you, we'll be ok. If we follow through and indulge that thought it's probably too late. I know this firsthand, too many times to count, much to my regret. It's why I keep choosing sobriety.

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#6

Are you working a program of recovery?

#7

Yes

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#8

Congratulations on two months! I had a similar experience in early sobriety initially. That’s when I made sure to lean into meetings, my sponsor, other sober women, the higher power of my understanding, and start working the steps. Keep going. Work a program. It gets better, one day at a time.

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#9

Yes, it's very normal. If you're not getting into the 12 steps it's probably going to be a lot harder for you to stay sober. Going to meetings is great but that's not really the program of Alcoholics Anonymous.

The program is the 12 steps. When we get through the 12 Steps we start to be transformed and the obsession to drink is removed.

There's an old story in AA...
What do you get when you get a horse thief sober? A sober horse thief.

Drinking was but a symptom of our problem. We have to get down to causes and conditions in order for the obsession to be lifted and to feel good again.

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#10

Go to meetings, and more meetings, and when you find somebody who has what you want, ask them to be your sponsor you will love it

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#11

Yes! Completely normal! We spent years and years drowning our feelings in alcohol to not feel or to feel reality.
Being sober means we GET to feel all feelings. Getting through them, I personally, go to AA meetings daily, lean heavily on the AA fellowship, help another alcoholic, exercise, meditate, pray (if you believe in a higher power), remind myself to not be hard on myself and most importantly don’t pick up a drink TODAY! You got this!

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#12

Early sobriety is hard. It takes time and support Ask for help trust in your higher power and believe. It’s just today. It’s all WE have. :heart::pray:

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