So I relapsed on alcohol, marijuana and another substance. I am scheduled for a UA tomorrow. I feel like I will fail the test. And on top of everything going on currently, my husband moved out and left to another program. I don’t understand why he has to make things worse and can’t even talk with me about anything. It’s like my world is crumbling. And I can’t even relapse again because I will jeopardize my place to stay. I feel really heartbroken. I knew we shouldn’t have relapsed! Because none of this would’ve happened. So currently I am alone in this situation again. I just regret a lot of things at the moment. How am I suppose to pass a UA test? The staff already know I relapsed. How do I make things better? I am so sad at the moment. I don’t know where to turn. I hope everything turns out okay. This is my first strike.
They found out by the staff that came by.. plus my husband said I was drinking to them.
Thank you.
I know you can get through this. just take everything one moment at a time. You will be ok. Much love. Message if you need to talk.
Have you gone into a rehab program? They have worked for many.
Honesty is the best medicine. Not an easy thing, but it will free your guilt.
Maybe you can check yourself into a treatment program. I don't know what the policy is of the place where you are staying but if it requires a clean UA you will more than likely need another place to stay.
I wouldn't worry about your husband right now. He should have kept his mouth shut.
I want you to remember what you're feeling for as long as you can. I want you to remember this the next time you have a desire to pick up a drink or drug.
There's a big lie going on inside of your head that tells you that this time, everything will be OK. But it never is, is it?
I had almost 9 years at 1 time and I relapsed in 2011. It cost me 3 years out there. I too believed the big lie.
You simply have to start over. The important thing is that you learned from your mistake.
You have hope. You could be sitting in prison somewhere but you're not.
And whatever you do, don't pick up another drink or drug!!!
It let you down again and it will do the same thing over and over as long as you keep believing the big lie!!
Get to an AA meeting and start getting some phone numbers of people that have been clean and sober for a long time.
Go to meetings everyday.
Find a sponsor and get on those steps.
What do you have to lose???
Dave, you da man. These are good words.
Dave knows sobriety and how to get it done 
I can’t add anything because he’s spot on.