I am grateful for God for allowing me to not die in my addiction, as so many people have.
Why did god let those other people die, but not you?
Taylor, I haven't a clue ; that's why I wrote undeserving. I do know that I am grateful.
Maybe you didn’t know that in 2020 alcohol killed more people under 65 than COVID did. Now you do!
All I'm saying is that you are here because you are putting in some work. Keep it up. Hang in there. Please don't think of yourself as "undeserving". That is one of my biggest issues with the Christian idea of God. If you're "undeserving", why bother? Don't think that way. You deserve good things. Be good to yourself and don't wait on "grace" from something thst we are unsure of. What we absolutely know is that if we work at it, good things happen for us.
Taylor, thank you very much !!!
Amen to that
You're very welcome, Laverne!
Taylor, 
Aww thank you Laverne. Stay here. Stay Sober. It's hard work, especially alone. Do you have a support system? Are you hitting up any meetings?
Taylor, yes, I do have both, and hitting up the meetings, as much as I can.
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