Im feeling so weird about coming up to a year next month. For some reason im dreading it and not looking forward to it. I feel like i should be excited but im not. Has anyone else felt this way.
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I got antsy before my 1 year anniversary- I didn't dread it, but I was not overly excited. Year 2 was much more peaceful.
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At 10 almost months
Thanks for this post
I don’t know how I feel just don’t want to screw up
Good luck to both of us
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For me it was the recall of how bad things were getting in the month(s) before surrendering: so that is a lot of very emotional recall!! It's normal to feel antsy. And remember to add the gratitude that comes too, for being sober today 
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My thoughts are you have a great relationship with your sobriety.
The substance isn't important anymore, it's just something you did in your past
I wouldn't get hung up on being excited about it but definitely stand tall and be proud of the very major accomplishment it is.
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Be excited about the possibilities and goals you know you can now make happen.
A future that would have been unimaginable a year ago!
Hi Rachel,
I was the same coming up to my first year. One day before completing my first year I sabotaged myself. I did not feel I deserved a better life. I did not look back at the progress I made. I was surrounded by guilt in an environment that could not see changes. It took me down an even darker path to lower rock bottoms. To much more pain for me and those I was around. A decade more of degeneration and chaos before I returned to meetings.
I wish I had known today what I did not understand back then.
But today I am coming up to 1000 days soon. My life is different.
I am grateful I do not cause more pain today. I am grateful for the small things I never would have had back then. I am grateful that I might make somethings better today.
One day at a time!
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