I’m loosing hope and just ready to give it up. I just can’t do this anymore it’s so hard. I don’t wanna feel anymore I just wanna be numb.
Jordan don't give up it will pass. The first few weeks are hard, the first year can be really hard but the desire to use will pass. Go to meetings, pray, and never give up. My first whole year I wasn't tempted to drink but it was hard in all kinds of other ways. Pray for the strength to just hang in there one day at a time it's worth it if you work it.
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Jordon, I’ve been there, felt that.
I’m feeling the same way while I sit here with my mom in the hospital having doubt
But I have to maintain myself strong because I need it so I can be here with my mom because if I was using I wouldn’t be able to be here with her, I’m also grateful because my sister trust me with her so this a lone have to keep me sober. Amen
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You can do this. As painful as feeling may be, it's also a good thing because it means we’re alive. When we numb our feelings for long enough with a substance, we tend to feel very uncomfortable when we stop using the substance. Sometimes, writing things out, joining a meeting (when I started out I went to a lot of zoom AA meetings), calling a friend, or exercising (even walking) can help when you feel like you want to use. Distraction can work for you
Numbing yourself does not solve the problem. Get support at a meeting or friends. Just for today! You want this!!! Sobriety is so amazing!!!!