So I finally got over my fear of hospitals and went all by myself to see what was wrong. I came to find out have the rv virus and the flu. The pain it put in my body makes me so miserable. My beast (addiction) is trying everything to get me high. I have a roommate that rather be my (babysitter)in all my busy than to go to work make her money. I have a mother (adoption)that care more about my money than me and her grandkids. I can't be with my kids for Xmas cause I have these virus. And no matterhorn much I'm starting to hate my job I can't work cause of the virus. But I stay silent and don't let the false emotion of my addiction take control. So I lay in bed sick and in pain alone but most importantly I remain clean and sober for today
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I know it seems the world is falling in on you right now but stay strong! That’s a huge accomplishment going to a place that causes anxiety and fear! Be proud of yourself. RSV and flu is no joke. Hope you feel better soon.
No it's not a joke its very painful when the pain pill wear off its like death to move
I had flu once and it located itself in my spine… I know the pain for sure. For me it was sleep that helped. Unfortunately ya gotta just let it run its course.
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God it's a long course....but the doctor did say the pain I'm going through in my back is the flu... I won't wish this on my enemies
Thanks for talking with me through the process
You bet.
Stay strong and clean. The last time I relapsed landed me in the hospital for alcohol poisoning. I am now 36 days clean and sober and starting to feel great. You will too.