Weed is destroying my life
Okay, well it sounds like you have some awareness going on. The question is, what are you going to do about it? You look like a young guy who has the rest of his life ahead of him.
I was mostly an alcoholic. I've been a truck driver all my life so I gave up smoking pot back in the early 80s. If you fail a drug screen you simply have no career driving commercial vehicles.
The thing I hated about smoking marijuana is it made me paranoid. I was always a book reader but I would spend long periods on one page because I couldn't remember or understand anything that I was reading and I hated that.
It also seemed like I was never content unless I could first light one up. One time I found myself on my knees trying to clean up some weed that had been spilled just so I could roll one joint and get high. I had a moment of clarity at that moment and was disgusted with myself that this is what I had become.
When I got rid of smoking marijuana I stopped being paranoid and was able to remember what I was reading. Unfortunately quitting alcohol didn't come so easily.
There's a whole life out there to be lived outside of drugs and alcohol but the journey begins with you taking the first step. You're never going to know what it feels like unless you first stop using that stuff.
You could start going to some aa/na meetings and talk to people that have been right where you're at.
If you keep on doing what you've always done, you'll keep on getting what you always gotten!
Now go do the right thing Emmanuel.
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In addition to my last comment the only thing that I know about doing drugs including marijuana whether it contains THC or only cannabis is that it affects our reward system. Our reward system releases reward chemicals during certain activities.
If you have a piece of chocolate cake you're going to feel reward chemicals. A piece of lettuce, not so much. You might enjoy sitting at the end of a pier with your girlfriend and reward chemicals are released. The problem with doing drugs is that we get a lot of reward chemicals released and then we get to a point to where nothing in life feels very good unless we experience getting high first.
This is the big lie of alcohol and or drugs.
The good news is, when the alcohol and or drugs stop, eventually the reward system is restored to normal. There is much evidence out there to document this.
I will stop smoking weed I try to walk listen to music and chill now clean up the house and all that Iām quiting today
Thank you
Imma read this repeatedly when I think abt picking one up
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