Back from a fun weekend in Mexico for my friends birthday! Everyone was drinking and partying their asses off. I felt a little triggered but I kept reminding myself that if I drink this weekend, I will be back home drinking daily again so it's better to let that moment of desire to drink pass.
I read somewhere "discipline is the difference between what you want now, and what you want most" I stayed alcohol-free.
I got home and within 24 hours back I felt anxious and judgemental again, I've been fighting these pessimistic thoughts since I've lived here.
I am determined to radiate love and optimism because that's what I am and that's what makes me feel good. But these racing shitty thoughts keep trying to grip me.
Doing the best I can with what I got right now <3
