Well Christmas was a whole thing. I have complex PTSD. And it makes it hard to be around certain people places and events. So I was really triggered yesterday by Christmas at my sisters house. Over the past few years everyone has drank far too much at these gatherings. Which usually results in insults and arguments. Going into this day I have tried to be mentally prepared I had tried to warn myself that this may happen and hope I could calmly remain without a reaction. My sister started making rude comments under her breath to me well the family was playing a board game. Several people talking at the same time. So no one could really hear her. But me and then my flight or fight response kicked in. I flew out the door into my car almost instantly I cried the way home and throughout the night. This is what I've been anxious for for months. Its just something my family doesn't understand my PTSD or the problems that I face daily. Over it
Chill yoy can do this... screw your sistet
Thank you! I think next year I will skip it. I can get together with the few I'm close with at a different time. My anxiety was just too high and things haven't been great with my sister for a couple years now.
I tried to be prepared. But it really took it out of me. I've been having some health problems due to high prolonged stress. I really think things will calm down now.
It's okay to disappoint people to protect my mental health, physical and sobriety. I was really there to try to please others and try to have the family together but it's not what I wanted at all. Next time I will listen to my inner voice.
Let next year take care of next year. Live well today x 365 and it won’t matter much if you skip or not:love_you_gesture:
