Well…got kicked out of the detox program because I apparently wasn’t “desperate” enough. Desperation comes in many forms. Trying hard not to drink again and slip up. 
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Wait what ?
I’m sorry don’t slip up it doesn’t matter they think of you
I appreciate that
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Nothing good happens to my mind, my body, or my soul if I pick up that next first drink. I am mentally and physically different from the average or temperate drinker. Once I put any alcohol into my body, the phenomenon of craving is introduced and my body demands MORE!! Something happens in my body, which science has yet to figure out, that doesn't happen in most people. Most people don't like the feeling of getting "out of control" with drinking, not me!! Most people get tired and slow down when they start drinking, NOT ME! I used to get fired up and ready to go!! I am an alcoholic, and it took heaing my story in hundreds of people just like me inside and outside of AA for me to realize that I needed help. I couldn't stop on my own, even though I had completely destroyed everything in my life. Corinne, I would high suggest praying and getting to as many AA meetings as you possibly can...unless you aren't convinced that you are an alcoholic, but no one gets to a sober app or to an AA/NA meeting on a winning streak. I didn't believe in prayer when they first told me to hit my knees and pray at meetings...little did I know it was the first of many steps towards living a life beyond my wildest dreams. AA, and my relatively newfound (2 years now) relationship with my Higher Power have truly saved my life!! Best of luck to you, Corinne!
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Thank you for this! I’m working the steps with a sponsor just wasn’t up to par with what the detox staff wanted to hear. I went to a meeting yesterday and today I plan to go to a few.
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It's here for the taking...I hated hearing this in the beginning, but it was true for me so I will share it with you. I hope that you've experienced enough pain for sobriety to become your priority. I used to think, "w-t-f does this a-hole know about my pain?!" Turns out it took exactly that amount of pain to become willing to accept spiritual help. I truly hope that you continue your journey, and stick close to the steps, and build and develop a relationship with a power greater than yourself. It's worked for millions of people just like us all over the world. I am not unique, the way I thought that I was in early sobriety. This is a WE program and we do this together!!
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Do not give up
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That’s too bad you decided to leave. Hang in there.
I didn’t leave…I got kicked out.
Well said!
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I’ve been kicked out of rehab & halfway house. I wasn’t entirely willing to do what they suggested. I was stubborn & I thought I knew better. I spent my entire life living without rules & doing what I wanted, when I wanted. The little things (like chores) seemed menial & ridiculous to me. Fast forward to another 10 years of my life wasted… I finally became willing to do whatever it took. It wasn’t following rules at community living but it was going to meetings every single day & calling people & accepting that I had to quit trying to control everything. I’m not a god believe, but I believe the universe has a plan & I need to quit trying to force my will & my way.
Good luck to you!
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I understand, but really I think we decide we’re not going to do what’s required and we know we can’t stay if we don’t do what’s required.
So did you really get kicked out?
Not being an a-hole here. Just speaking from my experience. And what I have learned.
Yes, I’ve worked for several detox programs and it takes a lot to get kicked out… it’s usually a behavioral issue… I hope u can dig deep and surrender to what is needed to get healthy & sober!
I have been kicked out of MANY things. But I can't be kicked out of my own RECOVERY... IM IN AGREEMENT THAT YOUR DRINKING AND USING CAREER HAS BEEN RUINED AND RECOVERY HAS BECOME VERY PERSONAL
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