Well I broke down and agreed to go out with friends Friday night and I ended up black out drunk in a very dark place… next morning I was throwing up so bad I had to get an iv and couldn’t hold anything down not even nausea meds….. I had a long drive to go as well yesterday and was still nauseous and knew I was rock bottom due to alcohol just holding a dog bowl in front of me driving so If I puked I had a container for it 
I was sadly almost tempted to buy more alcohol today and every time I think about a world with no alcohol I panic in my head like who does that? Why does the idea of not being able to have even one drink freak me out like I need to have it occasionally….. ugh
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Be grateful for every moment you don't drink!
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A lifetime is a long time, one day is only 24 hrs.
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I hate to remember how many times I said “no more “ before I was really able to say it and mean it!!
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Withdrawals are a b@tch. Just get through it and hang tough. A better life awaits on the other side. Find new friends or try and distant yourself from those who don’t care what you are going through. Good luck.
When your finally done, you will accept the fact that you can't use any mood or mind altering substances as unlike others, we don't stop. Give yourself a break as a graduate of UF, Gainesville is kinda a hard place not to party. And your still young. But if you are an alcoholic, if you don't figure it out, you will loose anything and everything. This alcoholism wants us dead but will settle for us to be miserable.
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I fist got sober at 24. Stayed that way for many years until I chose to forget that I was an alcoholic. Totally destroyed the beautiful life I had built over the 20 plus years. Hope you can find the solution to your problems before it gets really bad. I suggest AA. I know it’s a tough suggestion to take, but I know it works. You need some sober friends. Yo can find that in AA. They also have young peoples meetings in a lot of cities. Try a few women’s meetings too. You can really bond with a few sober sisters. AA can help you stay sober AND HAPPY one day at a time. 
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One day at a time as you heard many other people say. It’s hard to do when alcohol was your coping mechanism for a long time. Just look at each day and wake up with the mindset of not worrying about tomorrow let alone for the rest of your life. Getting sober is not easy and it takes hard work but the miracle can happen and you will find a life you’ve never dreamed was possible without alcohol. Do what you can to ask for help. Find a meeting and if you don’t like that one find another one. There are a lot of people out there that want to help you. Let them.
I’ve been where you are SO many times..I’m not saying to stop seeing your friends, but you may want to do some digging to see if these people will be supportive of a sober you. If not, it may be time to distance yourself. You can’t create new patterns if you put yourself back into the old ways of doing things. It will be hard, but you open up space in your life to make connections that line up with the values you want for yourself.