Well I really like crack and,ice im just really fighting the mental part more so the dreams im 7 days clean and this last relapse almost completely cost me my life im homeless staying with a dear friend who completely supports me and doesn't enable me im so blessed but i hate the dreams anyone have any suggestions?
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The dreams are said to be our brain trying to get us to give it what it wants. I have them still at over 100 days. Every time I wake up feeling it was so real that I find myself feeling extremely guilty and take several minutes of self examination to make sure that I'm not actually loaded...
You are not alone in this struggle. Most of us have or are dealing with the dreams...
Perspective, for me, is everything. As much as those dreams suck, I am grateful they are just dreams.
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Yes, the dreams! I was almost 6 months clean, and used for 2 days, this was 3 weeks ago. I have those dreams almost nightly. I am giving myself a lot of grace, and working on learning how to love myself. Are you in any sort of outpatient recovery program? If this is an option for you, please take advantage- it has been an absolute lifesaver for me. I have workbooks I can read and work on, and it really does help if you put in serious effort. You are not alone, you are not a bad person, and you are deserving of love, respect, and understanding. This app has also been super helpful when I'm feeling lonely or anxious. I'm glad you are here, and I hope you find my humble suggestions helpful. Oh, and I'm also starting a gratitude journal, I just list a few things I'm grateful for when I'm feeling some kind of way. Sending hugs, and positive vibes your way. 
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Yes thank you very much at Journal daily it helps tremendously and I'm surrounding myself with a small group of really good people that are very supportive of me right now it helps