Well, idkw, but I relapsed.
Still using.
Not drinking, but the pills are back.
Not as much as before, and I don't feel ready to stop. No one knows, I don't use them every day, but I am taking them.
I feel stupid for relapsing, things in life are pretty good.
House sold, I have savings, my car is paid off, my kid is graduating, I'm in a wonderful relationship.
But I have this sadness in me, it feels like a ball of sadness, and it just makes me cry and feel like cr@p. I told my psychiatrist (about the sadness, not the pills) and he said everyone goes thru ups and downs.
Idk why I'm sharing.
Maybe to hold myself accountable to quit this ridiculous addiction.
Hope you all are doing well
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Maybe don't try to do it all at once. It's good you're not drinking. You don't need to be sad though. You're right to reach out. You should tell your psychiatrist about the pills though.