Well I'm near here so hi everyone I'm April I'm finally at that point in life where I realized I'm not ashamed of my past and my decisions that I made because they've not only made me stronger but wiser if I knew what I know now years ago or even a week ago simply by lessons that I've learned personally hands on experience then I would be so much better off but then there would be no trial and error face I guess you could say in our lives and just like God said we're not perfect nobody is it took me a long time to get to the point where I could accept that and wanted to blame my addiction on everybody but myself when I realized that that's not possible is when my baby brother died in November and I honest to God I thought it would kill me but instead of going out and getting high or getting drunk and popping some pills getting lost for a few days because I have two teenage kids at home boys at that I very calmly focused and as weird as this may sound was very grateful that I was at work when I got this news as my work family is more like blood family we are that close and almost all of them know that I am in recovery and have supported me throughout this whole journey they gave me the tough love when I needed it compassion when it mattered but they love me unconditionally as I do them so I probably would have slipped had it not been for them my home life is kind of stressful but I don't blame it on my problems in my addiction because again it was my decision we have to live with decisions that's just part of it I guess I was just so used to somebody always fixing my problems for me when I actually had to do it for myself I couldn't so I can actually probably say I'm learning slowly day by day I use every single step by taking life as a lesson both for myself and my kids cuz I want my boys to want more for themselves achieve more for themselves and to know how to love somebody without being under the influence of anything but that's where I'm at thanks for letting me come in the club
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Hi April and welcome to Loosid 
Welcome April! Happy to hear you have some great support!