Well it’s been 4 days, clean. Trying to concentrate on the big picture. Want to save up money, not spend it on Alcohol. Want to see my boyfriend in New Orleans, and instead being sad about not seeing him, on the trip that got canceled due to the hurricane. I’m trying to look forward to a newly planned trip. Not going to make excuses to keep drinking, like last week. Been 4days now, and hope to keep it up. It’s sad in the past as soon, as last week, I pissed so much money away, not doing that anymore, at least I hope. One day at a time will really determine it
Focus my dear focus 
Some nights we had a $5000 bar tab. I don’t know who paid those but it happens. I used to hang out with all the dope dealers. I knew every bouncer at the strip clubs. It’s all a blur now. You will get your sh*t together in time.
Thanks, I get where your coming from. To be honest I hung out with a drug dealer, a couple of x cons, drained and popped pills, alcohol, and more. My current Boyd drug me to rehab in Louisiana. I got off pills 3 years ago. But alcohol stayed around. Glad you got away from that scene, you should be, very proud of yourself. I got out of that scene too, don’t miss it!!