Well this new to all this I have yet to quit drinking I have been slowing down but I'm grateful that I'm still alive I've never been unemployed and 45 years I own my house I have everything but I feel like I have nothing and I can't help think that has to do with my alcohol problem but I'm all alone but reading some of the stories on here help me to think more I stop twice once for 5 days when I had surgery and once for 2 weeks when my stomach just was feeling terrible I don't understand why I started again but once I was feeling better just went back to my old ways that's what I got to say I guess if that's why we're here thanks if anybody listens or cares
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Hi Richard! Recovery is a long process that doesn’t necessarily start with abstinence. It’s an awakening and it sounds like you’re at that place. It all starts with awareness. Best of luck on your journey!
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Thanks for your thought.
SO you are a FUNCTIONAL ALCOHOLIC. THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE WHO ARE IN THAT CATEGORY. MY DAD WAS 1 OF THEM. HE LOST HIS DRIVER'S LICENSE BECAUSE OF DRINKING. BUT CAN GET A TAXI. GO TO HIS FISHING VESSEL. 93 FOOT BOAT. GO FISHING AND MAKE $50 THOUSAND DOLLARS IN A WEEKEND. FISHING 
. SO BECAUSE HE WAS A HIGH INCOME EARNER. HE NEVER TOOK UNDER CONSIDERATION HE WAS A ALCOHOLIC. SAD SITUATION TO BE IN WHEN HE WAS A HARD CORE ALCOHOLIC
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Hey...functional addict as well here. The past 2 years tho after being a daily everyday drinker (during covid daily day drinker) well progress not perfection...I've made over 30 days sober 8 times...I just can't seen to hit that 60 days. One of my old best friends shares your name...it stands out to me
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Thanks for your insight 
Thank you for sharing with me,,
I was surprised I thought I would get more replies with my phone didn't go off but then I went to the app again and I saw your folks posts I appreciate it very much this stupid problem has caused me to become a hermit as I don't want to lose my license or kill myself or kill somebody riding my motorcycle or driving my car I'm a 60 year old man I should be much more responsible at this point in life if ever go out to party there's always a place to stay but I'm the type that likes to sleep in his own bed but next thing you know I'm going to be sleeping on a concrete bench and I don't want that I'm not made to go to jail and I certainly don't want to hurt myself or anyone else I think the people who have paid attention to me like I said I'm new with this I'm trying this is the only help I've got right now
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I meant I thank the people who paid attention..
Not that it matters but do you mean you have a friend named Richard I have a friend named Richard Mueller just curious.
Sup Rich. There's many types of bottom. Emotional was a big one for me too. Or I could say having no emotions, trying to fill a void that just digs it deeper. Sick n tired of being syk n tyred. When I got away from it's hatred of me, it's when my real self awareness came out. The thing that I was missing, the void, was myself, but now I'm unbound. Think clearly of how deep it has taken you, how you feel, felt, the anguish, disgust, before you think sideways. Instead of picking it up, pick up YOUrself. That's what I did. Happiness is actually my goal, but alcohol was the only thing in my way. Hang in there bro, itl kliq.
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Check out a local AA meeting. Could be inspiring. Your self awareness is key. Not all of us need to lose it all to understand we’re hooked and need help out of the drinking cycle.
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Thank you so much for your words
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I come to tears every time someone replies and tries to help me I appreciate it so much especially from people I don't know and probably will never know but thank you very much
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I'm not hardcore I just drink a lot of beer but I do get drunk every night which is a problem I don't feel that great the next day obviously but I'm so used to it it's just the way it is but I'm starting to realize it's affecting my health I don't want to die just yet thanks for your thought
Goodluck in your journey you will find alot of support here. Just know that you don't have to reach rock bottom to stop. Everyone's story is different.
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Well RICHARD. LET'S LEARN HOW TO LIVE WITHOUT DRINKING. ONE DAY AT A TIME. IF YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH TREATMENT COMMIT TO THE PROCESS OF RECOVERY AND GET YOUR LIFE ON TRACK. YOU HAVE PEOPLE WHO BELIEVE IN YOU.
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Hey Richard I'm Raymond and I truly care! If you need someone to talk to I am here for you. You are more than welcome to message me anytime you want we can get you through this and together we can accomplish this I promise you and I will help you anyway and anytime I can
Thank you so much Brad for your concern I'm always in a bad way that's why I try and talk to my friends but we don't talk about this most of my friends who know me well know my problem anyways so but they just I don't know I guess maybe they don't want to hurt me or tell me what to do I do have one friend who tells me that I'm an idiot for what I do but I appreciate the fact that you care and I will be in touch with you if you care to do so I just don't know how it's going to help but just talking to people helps on here I'm surprised that all the responses life got now and I appreciate it so much
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Buddy you can message me anytime you want to I will help as much as I can