thought tonight would be the night i finished what was left and went dry but i bought more 
it’s just so hard to grasp the future when i don’t know what it entails. why do i need to be sober? what can i even do in that state??
i’ve never been without some limitation (depression/social anxiety) so it’s just hard to try for something totally unknown, i know that can be a positive thing but im not a positive person.
anyway, tmrw is a new day (that i will prob be hungover for lol) but i will still want to change.
