We've all had plenty of experience with walls - those we build around ourselves when we hold on to hurt or resentments, or those others build when we've hurt them.
How can we break down the walls so we can truly learn to live, love and be open with each other?
It’s horrible if you ask me. 
Are you okay? I'm not sure what you mean
I have a friend that was a nurse and got hooked on Dilaudid she lost her license but is now sober got her license back dating a pilot and is super active. I can give you her name and number if you like
Putting walls up ourselves can be necessary to protect our Recovery - from former using acquaintances, from toxic relatives, from people/places/things that may be triggers. We can love them from afar and pray for them, but we have to be as selfish in our personal recovery as we were in our active addiction. But walls that others have built bc we’ve hurt them? That is what Step Nine in the 12 steps is all about. There is a desire to jump right in to making amends, but it’s highly recommended that we work the first 8 steps first and approach the amend-making process with a sponsor so that more damage isn’t done.
I agree with you. Saying sorry for the 100th time will just fall on deaf ears. And personal boundaries are necessary, especially since all I've ever known is toxic relationships
Instead of saying sorry, letting them see your foot work before making amends, goes a long ways. It’s best to have some time clean & restored to sanity before the amends process. But we desire forgiveness so badly, that we want to make amends before it’s time. They say there are three speeds in recovery - slow, slow, and slow. I have found all of this to be true. It’ll come around, and then it will just be a bad memory from the past.