Six months sober today!
This blue six month tag in my fingers is the next best thing aside from the breathe in my chest that is evidence of the path that I'm on. Cause sometimes this don't feel real. You see I live in my head a lot. It's comfortable in there. I know what I know and what anyone else knows is of no concern. And that my friends is the ego. That part of me that desires to fix manage and control all this that is my life.
But I know that now. This blue tag is my favorite color. That's not a coincidence. My higher power come through for me six months ago and promised me that if I lived and gave up some trust outside my own head that I would be sitting exactly where I am.
So I'm thankful man...even if this doesn't feel real. Years of wearing mask skewed my reflection to the point I look in the mirror today at a whole new person. But it's exciting.
When my higher power literally saved me, I stopped saying why me...not that my past still don't haunt me. Now I know it doesn't have a clue its over. The light has become stronger.
So even though I still struggle I know I'm not alone. I'm thankful for the og's here. I'm aware. I'm present. I'm sober.
