Whack-a-mole

Struggling Help
#1

Sober in another program but need to start another. I keep thinking I can do it myself. (I can’t.) And yet I don’t want to surrender. Don’t want to get another sponsor. Just being a brat and I feel weak and frustrated with myself.

The last time I got sober my bottom was so obvious. But this time, to the outside world, I seem functional. I know I’m not and yet that addict in me tells me I’m getting away with this one. That I’ll get it in control later, tomorrow, whenever.

Has anyone had a rough time committing to a second program? What worked?

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#2

Thanks for sharing. I’m still trying to figure this one out as well. I go to AA regularly, have a sponsor, and some sponsees. I work the steps. I have attended other 12 step programs from time to time, but have not ever gotten a sponsor or committed to really getting involved. It has resulted in me slipping backwards at times with some behaviors, but I’ve been able to ask for help when needed and get back on track without causing a major catastrophe. I have friends in AA with similar issues and we talk about it and support each other. You’re not alone. Keep pushing forward

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#3

Yep, been there for sure! I have to tell on myself by saying out loud to sober people that I’m struggling with surrender.
Telling on myself is the surrender, for me. Then constantly doing actions that are contrary to my addiction. Going to meetings, step work, service, calling my sponsor and other sober addicts.
This is daily, I don’t give my addiction any leeway.

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#4

It’s only a daily reprieve!

#5

Welcome