I work in a detox.
I'm going to school for addiction counseling.
I meditate and pray daily.
I text / hangout with friends.
I go to yoga 3-4x per week.
I work steps with my sponsor.
I'm on the planning committee for MSCYPAA.
I go to 4 meetings per week (I have a job at 1).
I read spiritual / self help books regularly.
All of this and I still feel lonely at the end of the night. Am I missing something? I've been single for a few years and have no kids. I feel fulfilled in almost every aspect of my life (for the position I'm in) except where it comes to my heart.
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Are you trying to date? Whether in person or on apps...
Believe me they don't fall into your lap unless you're like a top 1% male. You gotta go after them my friend. Which I know is easier said than done. It's a lot of work for some of us 🤷
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Good for you for managing your personal accountability. You’ll find and ask the right persons out when you’re ready. They’ll be lucky to have crossed paths.
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in my experience that sounds like what i have gone thru. i had everything i could ever want in life i’d have the best day ever yet at the end of the night i still felt so empty so much pain. even if i didn’t want to cry i would i couldn’t co trip my emotions i didn’t even know that was a thing. emotion would just wash over me. Recently been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and been taking medication for it and i FINALLY FEEL BALANCED. I don’t spiral into a dark hole at the end of the day. I can actually enjoy my time and not feel depressed empty anxious inside. I can only speak on my experience idk if any of what i said helps. It doesn’t hurt to talk to a psychiatrist/ therapist tho.
Also I think your missing rest and relaxation time! Learn to love the time you have to yourself. Treat yourself to a fancy dinner or dessert. Maybe even get yourself some soft cozy pjs or blanket to relax in. Take a hot bath with bath bombs and good smelling bath wash. The more you learn to love yourself the less you’ll feel sad at the end of the night. You’ll be happy that it’s finally the end of the night to kick back and enjoy your time to gain back your energy alone. Don’t get me wrong tho im an extrovert and feel so much better after i talk/ hang with someone it’s like i suck their energy out lmaooo
Omgg I always post such long posts but if i said this in person it would just be a convo lol 
help sounds like your doing a lot tho to stay busy !! great activities 
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I’m right there with you, similar stories, I’m here to tell you God has a plan for you. Just do his will be done not yours. Self care really important. Sending good vibes 
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Words well spoken Two:purple_heart:
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I 100% agree. I've said this very thing to other people when they feel like this. Usually people say something about loving yourself before you can love others. I do love myself, and even when I didn't I have a lot of love for other people.
Sort of. I'm looking on apps a bit, but I'm super picky in general. I also don't have a car right now and I live in a sober house so I have those 2 things going against me. I'm remaining positive throughout the day despite those. I've accepted that I got myself in this situation and it's only temporary. When I have met girls out in the wild we always become friends because I haven't felt that attraction that I'm looking for.
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I can relate to everything you said. This would have been a 3 minute phone call had you been my friend IRL. I have been diagnosed with MDD as well. I'm on meds and they work great during the day. Maybe they've just worn off by the time 9 pm rolls around. I feel like I have plenty of R&R with yoga and meditation. That's why I do them regularly, to keep a balanced life. I always feel great after my yoga classes. My friend gave me an oil diffuser which I use at night to help me unwind. I love it.
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I try to remind myself that everything happens for a reason and that I will meet the right girl when the time is right. Truly I would rather wait and meet the right one then just jump into a relationship or the sake of being in one, but it's been almost 2 years. In that time I've had some struggles and also worked a lot on myself. It's just a long time to be alone (for me).
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frr you totally get it !! I have an oil diffuser too it’s the best thing ever (Ü) I use it during yoga so when I take a deep breath I can smell divine oils. My favorite is lavender and tee tree wbu ??
Seems like you’re doing everything right in regards to staying sober, so kudos to you for that!! Have you explored dating? Bc on your post it seems like that’s the only thing missing and hobbies. By me they have singles events, maybe they do by you. Also, try exploring a hobby? Getting out of your comfort zone. I’m only 5 months sober so I’m not too sure how to approach dating when I’m ready but for now just working on myself and loving myself. I wish the best of luck to you
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Jay, you are just healing and growing and becoming healthy!!! As we do this we begin to feel like normal people feel… loneliness is a real thing and it’s uncomfortable at times… you are still in process so be patient and stay the course…. Keith Kayle
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I'm on a few dating apps but the girls I'm interested in either don't reciprocate or they lack substance when we do chat. My last gf was a unicorn. She wasn't an addict but she was very supportive and caring. She was also the prettiest girl I've ever met. That being said, I ruined everything when I relapsed. I'm losing hope that I'll ever find anyone like her again. I'm given a ton of compliments by my girl friends which feels great, but I'm not trying to date them.
My favorite right now is called "calm". It's a blend of lavender, citrus, sandalwood, and some other cr@p 
Ugh dating apps can be the worst. Maybe look into single events near you. There’s a fb group for my area. Or they say may find love when you least expect it. Hope the best for u
I dropped to one meeting a year. It was a great idea. Instead, I use meetup to find other things to do.
Eh I'm expecting it around....never. So maybe it's now! Or possibly now! Darn that didn't work. Maybe tomorrow.