I posted last night about my struggle. I’m actively under the influence of alcohol and desperately want to medically detox. I don’t know if Medicaid covers detox. I also need to be at work tomorrow and can’t miss it. I only have $100 to my name until my payday 8 days from now. I’m feeling so overwhelmed and I don’t have anyone to reach out to. I can’t even find it in me to call any service numbers. I just want to drink myself into oblivion.
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I went to detox 3 times before sobriety worked. Medicare paid for everything. Please go to the ER they can usually get you into detox. Don’t say keep drinking, that’s a crazy thought. Call your Medicare. Make some calls or you won’t get the answers that you need. Just sitting and continuing to drink will just make it harder. Especially if you really want to stop.
I was so physically addicted I needed to be medically detoxed at the hospital. I just celebrated 2 years sobriety. But I work on this everyday from reaching out to going to meetings on zoom so there is no excuse. Good luck. Don’t think about it do it. Make those calls.
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There IS strength in you to pick up that 1000 pound phone. You don’t have to do it alone but that choice is yours to make. Sure it’s scary but you know what was scarier than that for me? The thought of drinking myself to death all alone, wrecking the lives of anyone who ever crossed my path. Because even tho they met me during my drinking days I’ve left an impact on a lot of people. Not always bad, good stuff too. Our self harm will take what could be, for them, the person that they needed in their life just when they needed. When you take both the conscious and unconscious urge to drink and focus that energy on being sober and a decent human being you’ll see just how great we all are. Call someone. I promise it’s worth it. 
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I understand how you maybe feeling overwhelmed. It’s lonely and a huge mental struggle. I’m 9 months sober and I have been through the ringer when it came to drinking. The best and obvious advice is don’t drink when you are feeling like this it will just further poison your mind and lead you to think worst about yourself! To be honest reach out to a stranger but not like a random person so one you feel close too… it sounds weird but having someone who doesn’t already have a bias about you is the best ear to have. Good luck
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There is nothing wrong with you. Just sounds to my ears that you may be really ready to enter recovery. I hear a human that has about had enough. My suggestion is to find complete defeat and acceptance as you find a detox. Also acceptance that you’ll need support after. A program of recovery, possibly a rehab ect. Work like you life depends on it and you’ll gain all that you have dreamed of and more. You are worthy and worth the work need to get healthy
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Go to the hospital for help
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I'm on Medicaid and was worried about that as well, but I eventually just went to the ER and went through 3.5 days of medical detox, and Medicaid paid for everything including the prescription they gave me to help with cravings when I left. I'm in Utah, but I assume it's fairly similar for Medicaid in other states.
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I under your overwhelm. I started dental hygiene school on shaggy legs, an extremely toxic relationship turned drinking into an escape from stress for me. It ended before school started, thank goodness or I wouldn’t have survived this program, but I had to do a lot of work with the state in order to obtain a link card and medical insurance. It’s a frustrating process, it was also difficult finding local doctors to see when I actually needed the services but if you call and don’t hang up until you have the answers you need, they will eventually get you to the correct people who will help you out. Make the calls girly. And honestly, showing up at the ER will get you the immediate help and referrals that you need. I needed to be seen by a doctor and wasn’t able to get in to see one. I went to the ER, was treated and have yet to see a bill so Medicaid covered it. Go get the help you need and deserve. You can do it.
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I don’t think that’s going to help her right now.
What’s not going to help her. If she listens to what has been suggested it should help. If she really wants it
She wants to go into detox, she isn't looking for meetings.
I got that. That’s why most of us are telling her to get into a detox even if it means going to an emergency room. They got me in faster through the ER. After detox she will need all the help she can get which includes some form of meetings.