Is it just me.. or does not fitting the mold absolutely suck? Are we sober or are we not? Are we suffering from mental  psychosis? If we are sober why are we still reminding ourselves of how much we need/want/accidentally just relapsed on? It’s kind of like insanity repeating the same things over and over again but expecting a different outcome. When did a self induced activity become a birth defect? Where’s the size charts and weights for the woman to man child doses? How do I get excuses for spending my light bill money at Amazon? How do I get overlooked while someone else raise’s my kids. Where’s my cousin letting me move my forty year old five time rehab scholar self in? Where’s my super powers? Where’s child support and take a seats? Where’s my circle of warriors assisting me and cheering me on? I get.. just do it. If you want it bad enough you’ll do it.. umm I’m new here and you’ve blamed some bs excuse for how many years now trying to make your self sober up bc your out of control completely? Or just enough to stay “sick” or “triggered” really? Either your sober or your not. Either you choose to spend all your money on drugs or if you spend all your money shoes ultimately it’s the same stuff man. You know right from wrong period. You know how much to drink and how much not to so why are we handing out free passes for the people already getting a free. Addiction is a choice. Doing drugs and getting hammered is a luxury. It’s not a birth defect or an accident we stumbled upon.. it’s something we choose to do
LOL I wish it was a choice. I would have chosen not to along time ago. Alcoholism and or addiction is just the surface of the problem. Let me ask you this would you take a gun and put it to your head and pull the trigger with a one and six chance of blowing your brains out? Hopefully not. But give an alcoholic and or a addict there preferred poison knowing the consequences of use and guess what they'll use everytime. I highly recommend reading this book that's often referred to the big book. Just read the first few chapters and will disprove all that garbage that just spewed out of your mouth. Oh and fyi anyone that buys shoes over paying the electric bill is known as a compulsive shopper and that too is regarded as a type of addiction or type of mental illness. Obviously no saint person has ever done the crud I've done.
Nothing but love for you and I hope your able to let go of this anger and if you actually read all this crud I just wrote I apologize for wasting your time lol