I live in Philadelphia, and almost everyday I take the train, and it passes Kensington. Today I'm 40 days clean, but found myself looking out the train windows at what was going on where I used to buy from. After all that the addiction took away from me I'm having a euphoric recall moment. Thankfully today I'm capable of realistically playing out the entire scenario of me picking up in my head, and just not responding right after thinking how good one more would feel. Today I have a choice and I chose my recovery.
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Those are normal thoughts Johnathon…. They’ll come and go
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Fantastic choice Jonathan!!
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I still have the “I got drunk and wasted all that sober time!” Dreams to this day… if not as frequently. Way to make good choices for yourself my friend!
When we are new in this process. We can begin a landfill in our mind to create new patterns of Thinking. You can do this. THE DREAM. THE STRUGGLE. AND THE PRIZE. BE WILLING TO BE A LONG TERM THINKER. YOU CAN DO THIS
Amazing!! It’s awesome you were able to have that awareness and pause to reflect. You’re already ahead of the game!
I have no control what memories and thoughts fly through my brain but I can control my actions and responses
Let the brain play games. Follow your heart. It’s great to see the awareness as that’s a huge part of it…
Thank you everyone for the great feedback. I am just about to lay down for the evening. I feel so much better today, and made a meeting that I plan on attending regularly. I'm keeping an eye out for someone to ask to sponsor me also .
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Is t Kensington the street zombie district? If you were once in that place or ever close to it, think of where you are now! Maintain and sustain and pass it forward when possible.