What's the point of getting sober if I already lost everything I love and care about. Lost my 20 year relationship, my 2 kids ,house my cars. Probably going to jail. Right now I really don't see the point in being sober . I'm 72 days. Going to 8 meetings a week counsling, therapy, sober house, sponsor, Thought things were going to get better yet my family won't talk to me, police stacking up the charges, sober house is like probation. Sobriety came to late so what's the point .
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Well said homie 
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As amazing an accomplishment as 72 days is (I'm right in the same area between 2 and 3 months). Some family and friends are going to need quite a while to reconcile with you depending on them personally and the severity of the infraction (s), etc. Consider how long you were using/drinking to get into this pickle and 72 days probably pales in comparison , just as mine does ( around 15 yrs every night habit) . It's going to take a while my friend but you are on the right track. I ve had 4 stints of detoxing and sobering up and one thing I've learned is that "it can always get worse". No matter how much shite you are in you can still make it worse. I was still having wine brought in to my physical rehab facility after I had lost the ability to walk bc I had a similar psyche to yours. Well it still somehow got fricken worse. Just know you are on the right track and it takes some long time to mend some of these fences bro. I know it's cliche' but it does indeed get better .
Good luck my dude.
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Keep going ! Making it to 72 days is awesome ! And everything you are doing despite the hardships is worth it
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A person evolves. The guy you are today is not who you’ll be in 5 years. You can drive the car or let your addiction drive. You’ll get where you wanna go quicker if you drive. The destination will be your choice.
You might have to drive through the muck at first but you’ll be in control and eventually on a smoother road
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Hang in there bro. I’m
So frighten of what your saying because I can be in your shoes if I screw up one more time. Ask your higher power to help he will listen don’t try and conquer all at once. Hang in there bro and I’m
Here to talk anytime my man! Be well
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I hear you my brother. I had all that too early on in my recovery. It didn’t come late, and believe it or not you can get it all back and more. I ran through peoples lives for 30 years and expected it to be fixed overnight. It’s a slow and patient process. Your kids need you at your best. The hardest thing I had to do was look at my little girl in the face and say Daddy has to go because I failed a drug test for cocaine and now I split custody with her mother every other week, no child support, nothing. Believe it or not there is somebody that is new to this program doing worse than you, and you can help them. Don’t give up, this is a simple program but it’s not an easy program. It takes time and if you drank and used like me, patience is not a strong point. I listen to a lot of Bob D speaker meetings, you should check him out. Google him and lots of his stuff comes up. Find three or four brothers in the program who share your experience and lean on each other. We can’t see past our bs in the beginning, but the truth is we caused all of it, we didn’t have any better solution, but stay the course and you will see a better way and slowly it will all improve. Im living proof, our perspective is what needs to change, God bless 
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I know it feels that way but it’s never too late. Pain is when you need to fight. U have a lot of life left don’t give into thinking you are these past mistakes. I used to have a lot a completely different life .. but I faced my consequences and now I’m slowly rebuilding. U got 72 days in and you have 2 kids that need you even if u can’t be in their life the way you like rn. You have so much to fight for. It’s worth it.
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The point is you get to start over. Most people live one life, we Alcoholics get to live a second life. Sometimes it takes us losing everything we have to realize that we need to change completely. I’m one of those Alcoholic who lost dang near everything. Divorce, house, and a restraining order against me. I was broken down. I was beat down. I detoxed (meth) at home and then went to mental hospital for help. 3 years 4 months later, my life is going well. I have a job, friends (new), my family has slowly come around, I have repaired relationships, not all wanted to repair them, but I tried. I did the AA steps and continue to work them daily. I have service commitments. I volunteer at the local food bank, I sponsor people, and I’m a free man. It may get tough due to the consequences but I can assure you it will get better once you start your step work.
It’s never too late. All this will pass and you’ll be able to repair some of the damage done. Instead of thinking what’s the use think of as you still have time left to repair your relationship with your kids. The house and car are just material things. Do you really want to go out like that? Be remembered as a drunk that drinks himself to death and cared about no one but himself? All this will pass. The longer you stay sober the more you will appreciate life. If not then you need to see a therapist for depression. Lexipro has really helped me. Best of luck to you and never give up.
Bro, I lost everything, literally died, then lost everything you listed and went to prison for 3 years twice. I have everything that matters back and they mean so much more to me now. We want things to be fixed right away but it doesn't happen that way. Just be patient, trust the process, and for me it was trusting God. Now I have a great career that I got licensed while in prison, helped many people in prison get and stay sober that I still talk to, just celebrated 9 years of marriage, have a beautiful 3 year old daughter, just bought a 3/4 million dollar home which is insane because I grew up in a trailer in palm beach florida, just got a Tesla and now I continue to help others in recovery and give them hope. Bro, if I can do it, you can do it and I mean that. Just keep fighting, adversity builds character. I always tell people to think about how much they've done and experienced in life, like really think about it, then realize how old you are and compare that to how much life you have left ahead of you! We are, if lucky enough, less than one half through of our time here on earth, we have just as much time, if not more left! You got this man, and congrats on your time!
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I've found that there's nothing so bad that using or drinking on top of it won't make it even worse. Hang onto your sobriety with both hands. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not even next week or next month or next year even, but you'll see it's been worth it.
Nate, I get it. I lost much of the same. The point is this...
SELF RESPECT. And who knows, with that, maybe some of those relationships will be repaired. I know for me personally, 95% were. The ones that were not, I just had to let go of. Each time, when I thought life could not possibly get any worse, it did, far worse.
If you don't value your freedom, your dignity, your job, the safety, lives and respect of those around you, then perhaps self destruction IS the best path, seeing as you are here, I doubt that to be the case.
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So many great replies!! Most of us stop only because we hit a horrific bottom. It is said that when you get to this point and become desperate to try anything…that’s when the miracle happens. That’s the way it worked for me. Go get some help. Its not too late. You can build back stronger
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Trust won't start to build from others until you are probably 365 days plus ....unfortunately.
If the people you loved have put up boundaries that is a good thing. And yes it hurts, and yes it will feel like it's not worth it at times. But it's not fair to you or them if you give into the ego and continue to hurt yourself and others. punishing everyone...including yourself. Just because it's hard.
I don't know you but it sounds like you have done a lot of work already. No one says the work is easy!! But if you keep going the road taken the road gets brighter and easier the farther you go. There is always going to be the chance of falling back into that ugly ditch. And unfortunately that will never go completely away. But the more you stay focused and keep working hard to drive forward the more that you will eventually be rewarded.
"No matter how far we travel we are always the same distance from the ditch"
So suck it up buttercup and keep going!!! Grab that tissue for your issue lol. Your ok and doing great!! It will get better !!! And keep reaching out for support
In regards to your family not wanting anything to do with you, this is pretty typical, especially toward the start. If we are being reasonable however, I think this is fair.
Let's say I was drinking and drugging off and on for 5 yrs. In that time I probably told people I was going to quit, slow down, get it under control what maybe a hundred times? Perhaps I have been to rehab before, went to meetings before and quickly relapsed. Perhaps not. My point is, what is fair is that it would take them 5 years of sobriety, without fault, for them to trust me again, believe in me, desire to have a relationship with me. I doubt that would be the case, more often than not it doesn't take that long though I think you see the point I am trying to make. Give them time. How much time? As much time as it takes. Especially as far as your kids are concerned. They did not ask for any of this nor did they deserve it. I'm not asking you to be hard on yourself, I don't think that does any good. I am asking you to step out of yourself and put yourself in their shoes. I know with my ex-wife it's tough thing to do as we are so so very different personality wise. I've had to come to terms with the fact that she will never know the better me, that's over me. In her case I don't believe she cares to. What I did is give her reason, validation for all of the hateful words and actions that took place before I started getting high. My kids, I figured would take years to trust me again. It took a good while. Perhaps a year and a half. It didn't take as long as I thought and for that I am eternally grateful. Some will never get over it. Let that be THEIR problem. Dwelling on that is only going to fuel the resentment and put you're sobriety in further Jeopardy than it already is. Be fair to yourself Nate. Be honest with yourself. Only then can you effectively do the same with others.
What you cannot do however is expect them and God to work on your terms and in your time frame.
Youre going to grow and learn from this expierence and future you will be so proud of who youve become and how hard you worked to get there. But for now, one day at a time. Lifes a struggle- and unfair. You got this though