We held a memorial for a friend this weekend. It was a wonderful 'coming together' to celebrate him. Now, back at home, with only photos left, it hits HARD that he is really gone. We will not see him. Ever. Not again.
The urge to have a drink also hits HARD. I WANT the numbing. I don't want to FEEL this. But I need to. I have made it through many different emotions sober, I will make it through this one. Painful as it is. 
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I’m sorry for your loss! Hang in there…grief will say it’s ok to relapse…don’t give in to it, if not for you do it for your friend..your friend is with you! 
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You will see him in your dreams so hang onto your sobriety with both hands
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It is my opinion and belief that we will see our loved ones again.
In my experience numbing with drugs and alcohol increased my sorrow and pain exponentially. In sobriety I healed and grew stronger.
Keep up the great work🙏
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I’m sorry he is lost from you. Focus on happy memories and thoughts of you two together. Write letters to him while looking at a pix. Describe how you felt. You can relive an experience any time you want.
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