When I tell y'all it does not matter if you are in recovery or not life just be life in I encourage any and every everybody that is in this battle of addiction come out with your heads Held High and knowing that it is possible to live a normal life on life's terms because baby if you think the problems disappear just because you got sober you're wrong that's when things come into reality now how you deal with these things it's totally up to you but I do not recommend relapsing and giving yourself another problem on top of the problems that you already have or making your enemies happy because you think you have enemies now because you're an addict oh nobody likes me oh I'm beefing with everybody oh this person over here did that oh I'm going to get her Justin believe me all that drama all that chaos baby let me tell you it's still happens when you get sober because now not only do you have to fight the people in the streets but you have to fight your family your friends your church and everybody else no matter how long you have a way from drugs alcohol streets the people the places the things whatever they tell you in recovery throw it out just discard it because baby when I tell you that living a life of recovery comes with so many problems you got to deal with people not understanding you you got to deal with people playing with your life you got to deal with people thinking that your recovery is a game not knowing that you almost died multiple times and then again you have those people who would rather have seen you guys because they don't want you to live a life anyway these are real life problems not everybody is going to be proud of you not everybody is going to fight this battle with you some are just waiting for you to give it up because they liked you better in your mess they never expected for you to come out of your mess they never expected for you to live a life with no mess and that's the hard part about recovery and living because you're not saving yourself for them you're saving yourself for you and they don't understand that addict in recovery has reached their bottom we done ran out of options the the drugs don't work no more we're just going through the motions of getting high the drugs don't help with the anxiety anymore the nightmares anymore it does not help with you feeling some type of way anymore it does not help with hiding the pain anymore it does not help at all so when you have Rich your complete bottom and you know it do not let someone drag you back into that h$$$ by no means necessary continue to fight for yourself because you want to live you want to breathe you want life or normal life you want to go grocery shopping you want to pick up a steak and eat it whenever you feel like it you want to put on a goofy movie and walk around your house and your PJs are just your panties and bra and watch something that has absolutely nothing to do with what's going on with you at all but just because it makes you feel good and it makes sense at that moment you want to pop on some jazz and just listen to a record you want to grab a glass of juice and pop some popcorn and dance around your living room do you want to make people laugh not because you're intoxicated or you're under the drug because your Flats really funny you want to make people feel good about themselves as you have begun to feel great about yourself it's not the major things but the simple things in life they give you so much joy and peace like clocking in for 8 hour shift at a job because you never thought you would be able to do it again because you spent every day hustling to get high and I don't think people who have never lived the life of addiction truly understand what it means to us and what we value coming out of addiction there are two separate lives not to be mirrored but my story can save someone else's life because I went through that h$$$ and I made it out on the other side if you value your recovery today and you value your life today I applaud you with everything in me keep fighting even if it means 30 minutes at a time keep fighting even if it means an hour at a time keep fighting even if it means just for today 24 hours keep fighting because what you stand to lose is far more greater than going back out relaxing because of the enemy or somebody who's not proud of you or somebody who they can't stand to see you where you are I'm telling you from my standpoint a survivor of almost five years of recovery that it is not worth relapsing and adding another problem on to what you have and that's just to say if it don't take you out today we're living life and we're truly living life it may not be perfect and it may not look good to others but we're standing not crawling anymore we're looking at ourselves in the mirror and looking at the reflection of staying back and we're proud of that woman or that man because the struggles that we took to get to where we are most people can't even do it or regrets making the choices to stay clean and sober this fight is for you is for your smile it's for you to dance around even if it means dancing in the rain keep pushing guys because I'm telling you recovery is so much worth it even when the world is beating you down
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You completely have the right idea. These are our lives, and no one else's. Each of us has to find what works for us, and not necessarily the person sitting next to you at a meeting.