When i was 12 my mother would give me glasses

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#1

When i was 12 my mother would give me glasses full of tequila and other alcoholic beverages. It feels like ill never entirely forgive her for all of the neglect growing up but i still want to have somewhat of a relationship with her. I just invited her to go to church with me tomorrow

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#2

When i was a kid, i made Jack N Cokes, other Bourbon Drinks, and passed out beer. When I had a horrible cough, I didn't get Robitusin i got whiskey.

When i told my dad I was active in recovery, he felt guilt. I did this to him. That may be true, our family has addictive personalities. Cigarettes, Spending. Alcohol, the list goes on.

I needed to forgive myself before I forgave anyone else.

#3

I have found a truth.
The why does not matter and no one is to blame for my actions.
Let’s say I figure out why I’m an Alcoholic. Does that allow me to drink normally? Does it excuse my behavior when drinking?
No, not at all. It changes nothing. But having a “why” is handy if I’m looking for an excuse to drink.
As it says in AA literature “to thine own self be true”

Ask yourself, why am I looking for a “why” or “who”? What’s the point? Blame? Justification? Will it change anything? Will it help me in my sobriety?Probably not, because it doesn’t matter. It just is.

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#5

That is a big step

#6

I hope everything worked out yesterday. Stay strong and keep going.