I hate hate hate the fact that when things go bad all I want to do is drink I am 143 days clean but everything keeps happening and going down hill never felt so alone in my life but still staying strong as of now and resisting the bottle…. There is nothing worse than being alone and having no one to talk to because the people you ran with live the life style your trying to stay away from I am lost
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But what in your life is going good and worth stating sober about? If we only look at the bad, and at the things that make us feel like we should be resentful for sobriety, then we're going to find a lot of them. Focus instead on what's going good.
Are you attending any AA meetings? If not, give it a try. You will have a lot of instant friends there. The women's groups are particularly strong and they will take care of you, I'm sure.
I am A very positive outgoing happy person but when you
Feel alone it’s hard my kids keep me sober but they have been telling me they hate me
And would be better off if I was gone thanks to their father I will make it I shouldn’t have posted I am very independent and do everything alone but just lonely and needed to vent sorry 
I do aa I as well as iop (Intensive outpatient therapy) and attend counseling once a week And I’m just being negative and I’m a positive person I’m just having a rough patch and feel alone 
I totally understand. That's normal. Do you have a sponsor? AA friends phone numbers? Maybe grab lunch with one of them? Small things like that really help me somethimes.
Hang in there and get to a meeting. Remember, this too shall pass meaning your better day are ahead.
I have all that but I need someone I can talk to someone who had time everyone here is busy so my time is limited with them I will figure it out I always do
I do at least 1 meeting a day I literally live in a town with no stop light so my options are
Limited I do what I can but when is enough , enough? Everyone I care about pushed me out but I did that to myself I have no one other than aa
Group but they are always busy and I do virtual aa I am trying I am doing everything In my power to stay sober but this hurts and I’m tired of having no one who understands me