I’m spending a lot of time with my higher power these days because I feel bad venting to all my friends.
It’s been a long few days. My employer laid me off with no notice and no severance, I’m trying to find a roommate because I can’t afford rent, my healthcare will lapse April 1 meaning all my progress battling liver disease will be undone, I’m having a really hard time maintaining a good relationship with my parents, and of course underscoring all this is my clean time (almost six months!)
I’m not sure what to do. Take this as a grain of salt because I’m not religious, but do I really want to end up like Job, merely with a better understanding of what suffering really is? I refuse to relapse, but I’m scared and I don’t know what to do to get out of this rut.