I’m on day 25 and honestly not doing so well. I feel depressed, anxious, frustrated, guilty you dammit I’m feeling it. I don’t even wanna get out of bed. I am hungry and I don’t even have the energy to make anything to eat. I’m doing meetings readings and everything I’m supposed to be doing I just want these feelings to end.
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Hang in there Ronda it’s going to take some time. Everyone has a different time frame so try hard to stick with it. It will get better!
Hang in there. Recovery is so hard to do. Remember you had something to mask all your feelings but now your feeling everything. I have almost 30 months and being clear headed my emotions get pretty bad. I still have people in my family that won’t talk to me but you know what IF I pick up again I am dead. The biggest problem in recovery is having family and friends not understand how hard this is and how much work it takes. Try and build your support group. Reach out to people in recovery. Don’t let anyone bring you down, easier said than done. Sobriety is a whole new world and takes time to get use to but better than drinking or drugging to death. Stay the course One Day At a Time. You will come out better for it. Promise 
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Hang in there Ronda! The work you're putting into yourself will pay off big time, if you stick with it!
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If you need this minute or hour or day to just lay in bed and feel your emotions then do just that. The person above hit the nail on the head. We mask all our feelings and thoughts and emotions, for me I did it for 17 years and I have 6 years clean now. I will be 100 with you at first my thoughts had not changed enough because I felt like I would never be the clean person with years under the belt or even a month. I used to dream of a life and then tell myself but you won’t ever have that life because your an addict and to far gone. I had a therapist tell me that some days are going to be easy and other days will not. He said “think of all the years you have been using and all those years you masked who you really were and tore your body up and how many years did you torture yourself and body,?? Then don’t rush the process. So now I get it fully. I just needed more time in the sober life because the more I worked at it the more those negative thoughts and feelings faded and my health is improving even if it is slower then I would like. I am saying a prayer for you and I am here to talk to if you need anyone. This is my first week using the app. I myself have been struggling with two issues: one is my health and the other is lack of support/friends. Do you have anyone at all that can bring you food or order you something and have it delivered? Then you could just chill and take some time to process. Never feel guilty easier said then done because that’s what I struggled the most with. It is getting easier because I finally feel like I deserve love and have finally learned to love myself enough to put up boundaries. Make amends and then let it go. If you can’t make amends yet then write apologies out and throw them away if you don’t feel like giving them to the people. Once you gain your own power back these feelings will subside. I love you keep fighting!!!
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Your brain needs time to rewire itself. Give it time. Whenever I feel those hopeless negative feelings, I stay in constant prayer to God to help me. In my early sobriety I spent most of my time praying. God listens to you and will solve your problems if you pray about it enough.
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I know this roller coaster of feelings is terrible. But your mind and body are recalibrating to a better state of being. It takes time to get back to your new and improved normal. Keep putting out positive energy and it will come back to you. Congrats on your 25 days. Keep your head up and keep it going you got this.
The roller coaster analogy for these early days of recovery, I know are ringing true for me…you’re not alone. This is freaking hard!!! I am also feeling like just stop already but of course they don’t. Hang in there. Not easy to sit in the pain we spent so much time numbing ourselves from. Hugs 