I am a heavy daily user of marijuana. I have been since high school, but my usage has increased through the years. I grew up around it with my parents. I use it daily routinely. When I wake up, throughout the day and before bed. I smoke when I’m bored, emotional, both sad and happy. I smoke when I drink socially if I can. If I got it, I’m going to smoke it. I’m a functioning addict if you will. Work two jobs, pay all my own bills. I need to quit for a medical procedure that is an important goal for me and will probably save my life. Additionally, I’m scared to see how much money I’ll save. I’ve gone days without smoking before and I’ve had to get sober for jobs, so I know I can do it and it’s not the end of the world, but this time I don’t know where to start to quit. I have cut back a tremendous amount currently. I listened to an audiobook recently that said if you can’t quit cold turkey, it’s okay to wean yourself off. Is it though? My intention was to quit cold turkey on 8/1 and I’ve already disappointed myself. I’m smoking as I type this. I don’t know what I want out of this. I just downloaded a couple apps on my phone today for support. Maybe no one will ever read this, and that’s okay. It felt good to get it out.
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Hey Bri! Welcome! I’m glad you shared. I lived a wake and bake lifestyle for many many years. I couldn’t imagine life without it. Check out marijuana anonymous(MA). You can google it. They have zoom meetings. It’s been hard to learn to live without out it, but it’s been just over a year and my life is so much better. Crazy thing is I miss it, but I know I’ll end up back in the same miserable place (or worse) if I start again. I’ve proven this over and over again. Seriously, go check out MA
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