Had to make a game time decision to go to a different meeting. Wasn’t paying attention to the fact that the drive to this one would take me right past my favorite watering hole and the place where I last drank and bottomed out. Did I remember the negative? Of course not.
The path the addiction took was “oh you know you like their burgers…what is 1 burger and 1 beer?” I came closer than I have been in 50+ days to breaking but I made it to the meeting. And we covered Step 1. And it reminded me of the nature of my addiction… I am powerless over it. It reminded me that 1 beer today would have me in 4 days waiting in the parking lot at the liquor store at 9:00am to restock my fridge…driving drunk that same evening to get more, irritated that I didn’t get enough that morning.
Passing it on the way back from the meeting was MUCH easier.
Still may try to avoid that path for awhile until I am stronger.
Have you had any recent unexpected strong temptations?