While sober, I'm usually either depressed or just doing okay. Today I feel nothing. Is this a normal thing in early recovery? I'd almost rather be depressed than be in whatever mood you call this. It's like I've emotionally flatlined. Just complete apathy. I don't like it.
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Meetings
It’s your brain trying to protect you against something you haven’t dealt with yet. If y out have a sponsor talk to him. Get to meetings and talk about it. I have been through it, and it does pass.
Sounds like you could be experiencing PAWS symptoms and it will pass. Hang in there. https://www.google.com/search?q=paws+symptoms&client=safari&hl=en-us&prmd=isvn&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjZu-mi4PH2AhVrIDQIHXb1CsAQ_AUoAXoECAIQAQ&biw=428&bih=746&dpr=3#imgrc=5Jwa7i-KJz_3xM
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Stick around. You will be contacted
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Anhedonia is common in early recovery. I’ve experienced it when I’ve gotten sober in the past. Mine was temporary. The brain is adjusting. It’s more than likely temporary for you.
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I feel you.
Ryan, I am going through this as well brother. Stay Gratefully Deadicated!
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I feel you man. 2.5 years in I still find myself there. Time helps, finding things to do help. Summer tour just announced. Tickets on sale tomorrow. Nothing like a Dead show to raise the spirits, hang with the Wharf Rats.
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Start a side hustle with something you are passionate about.
I listen to a lot of dead shows, watch funny sit comes and of course work a program. Even when I would rather poke my eyeball out. Talk or keep in some kind of communication with people even if it’s the last thing u feel like doing. It helps .
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been going through the same, but also with a mix of rollercoaster emotions, sometimes i don’t even know why i’m sad- i just am
Very normal. You're exactly where you're supposed to be. Being around other ppl in recovery is my medicine tho. I always leave feeling better or breathing better.
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It's called being discontent
I committed to 90 in 90.
I live in upstate NY. Might go to Bethel Woods. It's close. Haven't been to a show in like 6 years. Phish, I think. I remember it, mostly. That's rare.
I get it. I have depression when sober, so a quick fix has always been booze. It does work, unfortunately. Of course, it then proceeds to ruin your life.
Yeah. I guess I'm very dissatisfied with life. I hope to find my way eventually.
Yes! My only talent is design/illustration. I'd like to do something with that. Tattoo artist, maybe.
Since 2016 I tried to get sober. There was never enough drugs and the vodka stopped working. Can't even count how many times I relapsed. Met a woman in AA last year who walked me through Fellowship of the Spirit stepwork. Just had a yr on March 23rd. I was just lazy and never wanted to do the work.