Whoever said after you get clean it gets easier.... Also told us about white knuckling. So how did I fall into white knuckling over four years later 
Good morning Rikka. You may be closer to your goal than you know. White knuckling in my opinion is the first step before finding and acknowledging a higher power. Going from a drunk to a “dry drunk” is actually a great accomplishment, because you are no longer drinking!!! You are at a great point in your life, because you soul is demanding more. Don’t get weary and well doing and follow your heart! I wish you the best. 


I just feel like, I've been sober over four years . Just wondering where I went wrong during that process. But I I suppose maybe my relationship with my higher power does need to strengthen
If I’m white knuckling evidently there is some person place or situation in my life that I am not finding acceptable I have to remember what I’m grateful for then to work on why I’m feeling that way and then see what I can do to change it
You need to change your unconscious and beliefs around alcohol
Easier NEVER... maybe... MAYBE less difficult! LOL O2-28-2OO2
Just had to look up white knuckling as it relates to recovery. Guess it means I am doing it since I had no clue bc I did it on my own, huh? 
Easier and harder are relative terms here. All about perspective.
I like the perception you have. It is harder but not impossible 


How many people are you sponsoring
Meetings/ meetings
Do you belong to a program.