Well, several days of a constant head ache, that Tylenol wouldn't touch...
I have taken pills I shouldn't have. The first couple times, just the prescribed dose. And as of yesterday, more then to get the feels.
So, I'm off the wagon.
It scares me, and I feel embarrassed.
I am not at the 'ready to quit' stage.
Life got real, and hard and I'm not willing to face it 100% sober.
Even writing that sounds dumb.
Oh well, this is the stage I'm at.
Thabks for bei f here for me. .sorry to everyone I've disappointed
Oh Nicole I am so sorry you're going through this. I'll keep you in my prayers and hoping you reach the point where you've had enough 
. Here if you need to talk.