Why is it that I’m still resisting the 12 step program of recovery for my sexual addiction, co dependency, mental health issues, eating behaviors on and on.
You would think that when you get to the lowest point in your life that would make you want to change.
Believe me my higher power has given me many chances and I know he isn’t done with me yet, but I still resist.
I’m beginning to think that I’ll never get to the point of working the steps, gaining recovery.
Change is really hard. You have to be ready to do it before you can even start. Sometimes you're just averse to the method also. Have you had the chance to seek any counseling on this matter? If not it might be the first step that you haven't tried. Hang in there friend
I struggle with sexual addiction too. I’m also a meth addict. The way I’m tackling them has been one thing at a time. First I worked on my sex addiction and now have been faithful for 7 months. Now I’m trying to work on the meth. One thing at a time. I can’t imagine trying to have done both at once. 
David . I appreciate your input. I’ve haven’t had much luck finding a good Therapist. I can’t afford to pay much out of pocket, so I’ve seen interns. They come and go. I would like to find someone permanent but get afford there rates. Tried my insurance provider for years. (Kaiser) wasn’t helpful.
Jeski A. Thank you for your input. I’m happy to here your gaining recovery. Good for you. Keep it up. I needed a reminder of easy does it, one thing at a time.
Just change your mindset
Good morning Kara!
Therapists, counselors, with or w/o insurance are so hard to find…at least good ones, that you can click with.
I was lucky, had a hardass , no holds barred therapist that I saw for 10 yrs. Told me like it was, even though I didn’t want to hear it, but he stuck it out with me, waved his fees, and he was the best thing that ever happened to me. Turns out..he was the kindest, wisest, man ever known in my life.
He passed 7 yrs ago, but his wisdom and strength he gave me stays with me .
Guess what I’m trying to say is …it’s very tiring trying to find the right therapist. I’ve been unable to find one I can connect with since I’ve lost him.
So , for you, I suggest meetings, you need to let stuff out and it’s free..
And James has the right idea….
If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change!!!
Best of luck to you 
Chelle:dizzy:
It always comes down to taking the small actions of self love and building new habits. Very hard to do. Have a list of outreach people you can contact before acting out.
Ahhh..
A drug is a drug is a drug..etc
Meaning we can stop drugs-alcohol..but our addictive mind is still there .. so we naturally seek another. Could be anything..even what peeps think are healthy, like eating well, exercise..
With me, I tend to take everything to the extreme..so I need to check myself.
Hence, my be the reasoning for the resistance to 12 step. Make that your new addiction !!
The 12 sucks...definitely for equal things.
That’s scary to think about. Oh my.
Get help some were.or what else.change or die
Cause you don’t feel it’s a problem. The sad part of it is and I hope you don’t wait for it come to this! Don’t wait till you or some one gets hurt. Some thing don’t feel right or gong wrong that you feel it’s a problem what ever that is keep that in your head. Don’t forget it
Cv