Why still want and long for the drugs ...since I

Why still do I want and long for the drugs ...I think it has more to do with liking, ones self...I just can't begin to say how numb I have become to everything ...family friends Just feels like I am more isolated than ever...Nothin in common with normal people ...makes a bit of an uphill battle....ugh disgust...I wanted meaning and got nothing almost three years in...Feel like barely getting by ...