I’m going on 2 year sober. I also have some mental health issues as well.
All the sudden, Ive been become very depressed and my mind is just racing. There’s been nothing out of the ordinary happen. I just have a the same daily routine.
My life seems to be the best it ever has in many, many years.
So w*f is wrong with me? I feel like no one else can understand me or what I’m going through right now, except someone in recovery.
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I can definitely relate to the mind racing (obsessive overthinking), and feeling blah out of nowhere. I’ll be sober 2 years in July. I just went thru this a few weeks ago. I had about 2 weeks of feeling overwhelmed with life. Every day was just felt heavy. I got out of it by getting back to basics with my recovery program and self care. I’ve been calling my sponsor every day. Not that he has any great wisdom, but for some reason it makes me feel better. I’ve been reading all the daily prayers and other daily AA related sayings that my A.A. home group chat posts each morning. I’ve been meditating daily. I’m also calling 2 newcomers in my home group each day to check up on them. I also signed up to chair a few meetings. I go to 3 meetings a week as usual, but I haven’t volunteered to chair in a while. I’m not sure what’s exactly working and why, but overall I feel much lighter. That anxiety and fog of gloom and doom has lifted. Do you practice any particular recovery program? If so, maybe you can recommit and do more. If not, maybe now is a good time to get involved in one. There are definitely several good options out there
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I go to AA here and there, but not consistently. I volunteer a lot with ppl coming out of rehab, starting over and getting them resources for continued help.
I think I try to focus all my *hit on them so I don’t have to on me. 
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At first glance I thought you were saying you were going to hit on them lol. My sick brain actually thought for a minute that might be a good idea lol.
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Hello Amber A: Along with a sponsor, NA 12 Step program, support group, service commitment, I talk with a therapist once a week and ta a psychiatrist once a month. With all that in place, I still go through periods of depression from time to time. It doesn’t happen nearly as much these days, but it still can happen. I double down on everything when it does, especially with using the phone. Unfortunately will all that in place, I’m still not exempt. I always try to remember that it will pass, and NOT to use drugs. Thanks.
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I have had similar moments in which I have suddenly become depressed without any provocation. Really perplexing but luckily the bouts have subsided just as randomly as they have started. I hope the same for you. 
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“Perplexing “ is a great term for this phenomenon. If I think about it, I’ve put myself through a lot of abuse, on a daily basis for many years. I’ve found that even though I practice working my recovery program on a regular basis the effect of recovery has not been “linear “ for me. I hope that makes sense. Addiction has no “rhyme nor reason”; consequently neither does recovery. I cannot “control “ my recovery; I can only practice it to the best of my ability. I have a few tools and a very good support group. By being vigilant I’ve been able to stay clean and sober for 5 years, 7 months and 13 days. Thanks. 
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Yes. Thanks for your input
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That’s amazing! Good for you!!
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