I've been able to take a step back from myself/emotions and to observe...I'm angry/impatient/feeling sorry for myself etc...normally? Yeah I'd just grab a jug and say F it...but I see now and understand that and just say NO (which in hindsight is the BEST decision ever cuz nothing good ever ever ever comes from that) but...last time I slipped (just talking with brother about this very thing) well last time I slipped I was HAPPY GOOD MOOD all right w the world and I wanted to celebrate 
so no use....to me that's the most difficult time to get past...the happy times when it's just a cause to say CHEERZ...last time I didn't even pause to give it a 2nd thought...I just picked up...any thoughts?
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Hmmm. I see your point and understand the dilemma, I think... Maybe part of the issue can be found in further questions... Why can't we drink a water, juice, whatever and consider that celebration? At the end of the day, sobriety is actually worth celebrating. When I DO "celebrate" with alcohol, it generally ends with regretting that choice. Even in the times that nothing bad takes place, drinking is not excessive, etc. Which is almost every time I do decide to drink now. Yet I still tend to regret it if for no other reason than not being true to myself and not representing my own sobriety???
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Man, I struggle with this too. For me, I felt like I was never going to have fun again. I stuck with it and was pretty numb for a while. No joy, just mundane routine. Then one day, I said screw it, I'm going to find things to do that make me happy. And I did. That was hard too. I hardly find myself in places where people are celebrating but when I do I feel like it's natural to just feel a little left out. I just try to remember what I did this for and stay strong for myself.
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