Wish I would stop failing at getting sober…..I’m running out ideas and programs to do…..none of them seem to be helping. I couple of times I managed to stay clean for 4 months or so and then that’s it. And lately I can barely make it to the 3 day mark….what I’m I doing wrong. I’m so freaking exhausted and sick of addiction. Like I use to numb out life and lately that ain’t doing it….i just want to be free from addiction…….i want my kids to be able to look up to me and say “yes, my mom is an addict, but fought and got sober”….i have this fear of death now….i don’t want to be another statistic that didn’t make it out of this mess of a disastrous life of addiction. Ughhhh…..I just want to scream….sorry if this isn’t allowed. I do want to congratulate every single one of you who is sober or trying to be!
