Being around family is such a huge trigger because they are a bunch of active addicts and alcoholics in denial. I feel like I’m going crazy. I’m 5 days sober now, and ready to fully accept the program. I have a sponsor, I’m finding my higher power, and I’m making friendships in the community. I’m just really struggling being in town with family now. I’m struggling to find in person meetings and have such a busy schedule between my divorced family and siblings in town. I threw my vape away today, my last vice. And I’m just an emotional mess and need words of encouragement 
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Maybe you need to walk away and take care of you. I’d rather be alone then be with my family
Take frequent self care breaks. They could be a quick walk outside to take a deep breath, a trip to the bathroom to repeat the serenity prayer a few times, a call to your sponsor, posting on here like you just did, a zoom meeting. Remember, it’s your sobriety and your responsibility to take care of yourself. Don’t fell ashamed or guilty for taking time for yourself. It’s the right thing to do. You got this