In the first 8 months of my sobriety I was surrounded by recovery. I went to rehab, lived in a sober living house, went to meetings everyday, and I freaking loved it!!! But in the last week my life got turned upside down. I broke a rule at the house I was living in and got kicked out. Which sucks but I will face my consequences. I had to move back home with my parents and daughter, I love being with her everyday again. I am blessed that let me come back, 8 months ago I'd have to go to the streets. But now I don't have all the people that understand me around 24/7 and can't get to a meeting everyday. My depression is creeping up on me and I can feel it, yesterday I didn't get out of bed at all. Thoughts of using keep popping in my head, but I know I will lose everything if I use. Getting high is not an option, but I'm struggling to adjust to my new life. I'm having a hard time finding where I fit in at, I am bored and lonely. I feel like a bother to the people I leaned on b4, bcuz they have their own stuff going on and don't really have the time for me. I'm on an emotional rollercoaster and I can't find the stop button. I went from feeling invincible to feeling like I am starting from scratch AGAIN!
You are not alone, you can do this!
Do you have the Big Book app? It has zoom meetings all day every day from all over the world. It saved my life during Covid.
Remember your tools to staying clean reach out call your sponsor zoom meeting are 24/7 and find something you like to do to fill your time you got this !!!!
I am in a similar situation you right now. It's so hard trying to be a normal person and regular member of society when all I've known for the past decade is the complete opposite. Its a very lonely feeling. But you aren't alone in feeling this way. We have to just keep going!! If we don't, the cycle will never end. 
Thank you all for the support and suggestion. Amy I am going to download the app right now. Thanks again for the love
Depression will set you back. You need to find hobbies and activities you enjoy. Also build strong habits and routines.
I know the feeling when you lean on other people too much and you become a parasite. You need resilience, then when something bad happens or you get in a mood, your first instinct won’t be to find comfort in someone else.
I always think about that, she lost her dad almost 6 years ago to cancer, I am the only parent she has. I'm lonely, bored and adjusting to a new routine and surroundings.
Keep ur head up and if you need a friend, feel free to message me. 
Hang in there Erin! Play the movie out all the way to the end. I know it all seems so hopeless. I was there too. I went from having everything to sleeping on my sisters couch. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and I promise things will get better. I started doing puzzles to pass the time and occupy my mind and five years later I’m still doing them! I made it through and today I have everything I need. I’m still lonely but life is very fulfilling!