This morning I awoke in a panic and with tears in my eyes. I have no idea what I was dreaming about or what was happening while asleep. Upon waking up I was almost hyperventilating and crying with the most lonely feeling. I haven’t felt this way in quite some time. It’s the type of loneliness that you can only find in abandoned and broke down foster homes. I have felt this way before but it has been a long time. It makes me wish I had never felt love before . And now I’m scared I’ll never feel love again. I guess what I thought was going to be love was just a mistake. Was it my mistake? I wish I knew. All I know now is I can’t stand waking up not in control of my emotions. I am all alone.
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You are not alone! You have all of us. Stay close & know that you are worthy of being loved. Just as you are.
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Thanks bud! You are appreciated.
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It seems to me that if your a member here people got your back if they know you or not. So no you are not alone. Hope your doing better now, we are all here for you.
Thank you. I am very thankful for this community. The support has been great. On this journey of sobriety I know I have the company of people who are willing to push pull and lift me up. Unfortunately the loneliness I feel is different than that of being alone . I’m surrounded by beautiful people who support me! And I am so thankful and blessed to have. With out you all this loneliness or emptiness or the void in me, would have already taken over. It’s just all so new to me and I miss the affection and touch of being in a intimate relationship. I was married for 14 years and I just miss the family life.
Good morning Carey
We have all been there. Please know without a shadow of doubt. we are all here for you. You are no longer alone my experiences. Since coming to the fellowship of AA and NA, I am one of nine boys and have a huge family. I’ve never been filled with so many people that have filled that void of being alone.
We are here for you