Really worried being new in recovery in 3 days will be 3 months, ya I've had 2 lapses but I haven't relapsed, idk how imma stay clean the 18th of April 2004 my mom's boyfriend who drugged her and my brother and locked us in a basement and made them watch him rape me for a week shot her up with heroin and bleach and killed her and she was finally doing good for the first time in 20 years she was clean, just got out of rehab, had her own place and a job, and her bday is the 21st of April. It's one of the hardest times of the year for me and I'm worried like every year since ( I started using meth the day I got the call at school that she was murdered) I'm gonna use. Any advice would be greatly appreciated
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Good morning Amy. This is all very heavy for you. It’s a lot to handle all on your own. I suggest you find a treatment facility that will take you in. This addition is a beast, and you will need help. Don’t be ashamed to go get the help you need and deserve. You’ve been very sick for many years, and recovery and healing are going to take time. Hope you can find the strength and courage to go get help 