What a whirlwind this world I was going to say has become. No matter what it is I try it seems certain things hold more power even when you stop and are thinking logically. Oh just this one time more won’t hurt ya!
Goodness gracious, I want it out of my life but for some reason still am experiencing beyond craziness…I don’t know what to call it, is it cravings!
I just wish my brain would forget about it or see it as a negative thing!
I’m sure the trauma of the heart surgery during Covid, two cancer scares and one more looming, diagnosis of ptsd, termination from work while on medical leave, the reposition of my vehicle, which was my source of stress relief, get in the car and just go for a drive, and my landlord trying everything within their power to evict me…
That’s a whole lot of traumas I know…they are my past not my present!
Some how, some way…I am going to win