was accidentally erased when I thought I had hit "post." I apparently did something else and my gratitude was erased. I just sat with the effects unsure if I would retype it. I decided against that thought and fell back into a deep slumber. No worries.
I awoke, thankfully, unsure of the time. Checked my phone to see it was 30 minutes shy of my set arrival to work. Missed a phone call from my best friend. Unusual for her to call twice. I messaged my supervisor that I had overslept and would ammend my schedule to reflect a 30 minute lunch and not 60. No worries.
Stopping at the gas station on my way to the office I walked in the store and straight in to my supervisor 
. Exchanges and explanations of our unplanned meeting in that spot, and laughter abounded because both of us have moments that noone else seems to experience in times that are socially awkward. No worries.
I was very grateful in the moment yesterday to have such a wonderful and caring supervisor. I reflected on times my life mimicked her present moment where my bank account got hacked and the stress that entails. I was grateful for having this new flex schedule. Being the first time of the day being flexed and my oversleeping, still no worries. Waiting at the Rx window for 12 minutes to get a prescription made me arrive 45 minutes late for work. No patients until 11. So, no worries. Again, I recognize my gratitudes thus far of the day. Now, I decided to write my gratitude at the end of the day for I have so much to be grateful for before noon. No worries.
Client. New insurance. I no longer accept it. Discharge. A little sad and definitely grateful. Progress had been made during sessions., however no where near ready to discharge from my services. Grateful he and his family verbalized their appreciation for having had the opportunity to serve them as he has serious deficits with social skilla and interactions with markedly noticeable improvements in those two areas. No worries.
Check email. Newly created document to reflect all of our therapy groups. It is missing one therapsit and his group times. One of my 3 groups is changing its start time. No noted. I make no changes. I reply all with the missing information. Noted, mentally. People may want to consider checking with all therapists involved or at least their supervisor before sending out an email to THE ENTIRE STAFF OF THE BUILDING! No worries. Working through lunch. 2 Patients arrive, mom and daughter. Both in need and seeking services. 2 hour appointment. My notifications comtinues to ping. I forgot to silent it, no worries. Until there were.
I am grateful for the services we proivde. We have awesome therapists and psychiatric providers. We have procedures in place. We also have new front desk staff. I am so grateful for them. They are the first for all to see and interact with and schedule for more than 7 of us. Still learning, them and myself the intricacies of processes for progression into our services. No worries until a therapist messages me to question the reasons why I referred to patients to her that apparently now decided, within 48 hours they may not attend her group. Sends me screenshots of appointments made in the future with me for treatment planning and the details. I have little worry. I know the procedures. This person is not my boss. This person insults my intelligence and proceeds to insist that I meet with her for training she is not authorized to provide. Not a conversation over these 2 clients and what the possible issues are that they have changed their minds to attend the trauma group. I am not to refer her clients that have the potential to be no shows th group.
What?
I have feelings. Big feelings about all of this that just transpired in teams. What?
I am grateful for this therapist. She knows what she is doing. She is big on accountability. So am I. I am grateful for her abilities to sniff out discrepancies in documentation that can be addressed so it is not an audit issue and so all documentation is parallel.
I am searching my mind to try to understand the thinking that I have the abiltiy to know if a patient is going to be a no show for group or even for individual therapy. I am trying to understand how following procedure and incorporating a remedy to an issue (a signature didn't get saved) was addressed and approved to refer for group is now the responsibility of this therapist to insult my intelligence and to demand trainings and meeting with me. I am grateful it was 5 pm
I am grateful for the ability to address this with a person who knows us both.
I am grateful for the people I serve in our communtiy. I am grateful for small steps towards reaching goals. The success is not in the goal bit in the steps towards the goal. Two years ago, a situation such as this would have been the sole basis for the liquor store. No worries then about drinking, so I thought. No worries today with no drinking, this I know. I am grateful for the distance I have come and for the successes along the way. Almost 2 years sober. Small in the big scheme of things, yet huge in the eyes of this beholder.
I am grateful for today with having had time to process the events of yesterday. No worries, now. Stressed last night. I am usually so good about compartmentalizing work from home. I did not do so well on this yesterday. I will do better.
I am so grateful for this gratitudes part of Lossid. Writing daily gratitudes has been so helpful for me in my daily routine and helps me with finding things to be grateful for when there are days I struggle.
I know this is a long post. I do not care. This part Loosid is one of the reasons I continue to be active on here.
I have to end with how much I appreciate Lil Man and Lucy and their unconditional love!
No worries. The success is in the steps, not the outcome.