I believed for years that i’d never escape the cycle of drinking & drugging, feeling horrible the next day, repenting & begging God for help, getting overwhelmed, repeating. I was in that vicious cycle despite wanting so badly to give it up, for about the last 8 months. I destroyed my relationship with my parents and friends (all in one night ) in a drunken, drugged out stupor and the realization of what i said and did once i was sober was enough for me. I got tired of being tired, feeling hopeless and unstable, and crushingly alone. Since then, im back on my mental health meds, getting back into my hobbies, and going to the gym consistently. You’re never alone in any of it, ad long as we are here together. You can do it!!!! Truly believe in your end goal and watch it flourish. I still face crippling anxiety and imposter syndrome bc i didnt see it possible ti be healthy, aming the many things life continues to throw at me, but your mind is so much more capable than tiu guve yourself credit for. We got this!!!
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