You know, as I lay here in bed tonight/today... I can't help but think of the last year and a half of my Recovery journey. There are many things I've gained, and many that I've lost, all in the name of Recovery. But the key, at least for me, to make this successful, was the recognition that I was not forced into my time in active addiction. There was no weapon to my head when I took that first hit/drink, nor the one after. I did so completely of my own volition. At the end of the day, I turned to drinking and using to numb the ache of what I was so desperately running from, and while it cost me a great many things...my children, my family, and my home, it also gave me so much more. Through this journey I have learned that whether it have been love, or simply recognition that someone cared enough to be present for me in my voyage, that I am capable of genuine adoration for a soul. I learned what it is I do, and do not want from those around me. My time has come to an end in many ways throughout my journey, but it is also now beginning in others. I have started trusting in myself, and trusting in the fact that, I am worthy of the recovery I so desperately deprived myself of before. I am worthy of love, and kindness, and I am worthy of the future I have in store for myself. For those just starting out on this journey, I can only hope you learn and acknowledge your truths sooner, rather than later. Amd for those who have learned these truths? May you never forget them.
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Welcome to recovery Bailey.