I have no sober friends. Im okay on my own but when my friends ask to hang out It makes me sooo super anxious. I just know if I hang out with them I will end up getting high and going down the hole again.
I feel bad for not hanging out with them tho and they all say how much they miss me. I’ve said how i’m nervous about how they are still using and they say they won’t do it around me but I KNOW they have stuff and will let me use it. I don’t trust myself yet around substances. Those friends still try to push to hang out and say they will not let me use…
The whole situation makes me anxious. And then I’ll get confident and try to plan to hang out but then I bail and go then I look like a sucky friend who doesn’t come thru.
Does anyone have any helpful thoughts ?
I think we’ve all gone or going thru with this. Ultimately if you want to stay clean you’ll need new clean friends or if those old friends decide to get clean. It’s part of the process unfortunately/fortunately…. Keep focused on your sobriety and don’t worry if you think you’re a “sucky” friend for not wanting to be around drugs
I appreciate your response I needed to hear that. Thank you 
I guess if you think about it they might be the sucky friend for trying to suck me back into a toxic environment
I have two such friends that are like the ones you describe. They would even respect my sobriety enough to keep everything out of sight....BUT I'll see a person go to the bathroom frequently and some winks and nods then I know coke is around. They will not go as far as to prevent me from using, so boom ...doin blow, alcohol will be next, then out to the bars and God knows what . It's a show I've seen way to many times and its not entertaining anymore. So you and I pretty much have to stay away from such friends. You can still text and talk to them...I just wouldn't. recommend hanging out, especially in an old place of use. My past two relapsed have been same place 
. Focus on your sobriety Two, if they are truly friends they will understand. Good luck
Wish you Strength and Serenity
My last post made me think of yours: You’re going to lose friends, relationships and maybe even family but at the end of the day you just gotta make sure you don’t lose Yourself !!!! I’m one of your sober friends now !!!!
I can't really sum it up in a post but I'd be glad to explain how I handled this same problem and it worked for me if, hit me up
I talk to such friends on the phone only or outside in public on the street walking your dog or something like that. I will not hang out with them where there are drugs anywhere. As previous posts are shared you need to focus on your sobriety and go make some new friends your higher power is big enough to give you new friends. That could be a focus for you is making your friends. I know I am doing it and it’s working.
You cannot should not worry about someone else opinion is. It's your life. Choose your friends that fit your life.
I was in your shoes once. But I put my sobriety first. Because experience has taught me that I will lose everything I place before my sobriety. Keep doing you and your real friends will join you!! You can do this!!
Unfortunately those friends will get you fu$ked up before you get them sober. I had to walk away from my best friend and we were friends since we were 8. Needless to say he's been in a vegetative state for the last 7 years due to an overdose. Thank God I went in a different direction....
You already know what I'm gonna say.......
Get to some fückin meetings and make some sober friends!!!!
I have to agree 100% with Taylor. If you have issues with AA or NA, then find some other recovery program that has some sort of fellowship. I don’t know enough about your old friends to tell you to completely ditch them, but I can tell you from my experience, that without making real friend connections in recovery, life gets very lonely. Living sober and alone in a “partying” world slowly but surely pushed me further and further into a deep dark hole. Make some new friends. Find some sober sisters! It’ll do your soul good
Thank you !!
Agreed!! I need to get out to more meetings it’s just a lot of men attend so next time I’m gonna attend a women’s meeting
thank you for ur words !! Im glad to here it works for you and your doing good
Agreed !! ヾ(￣ー￣)X(^∇^)ゞ
Everyone on this app is way nice. I hope to come across someone as cool and smart as you in person. But yes you gotta loose the harmful friends before you can gain healthy relationships.
We in this together tho 
thank you for your words.
agreed !! sobriety first ☆～（ゝ。∂）
Thank you for your words!! I've had. Similar experience and yah those "friends" won't stop you from using and almost hope you do start using again so that they can smoke your stash. Thanks for sharing
Wish you strength and serenity back also hugs ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ
Wow thank you that was nice of you to say .. I appreciate you !! Feel free to reach out anytime.. Stay Blessed
Women’s meetings are so important in early sobriety. I’m ashamed to admit it, but the predation of vulnerable people in early recovery is real.
And a friend will not jeopardize your sobriety. Anyone who does that is not a friend. You can believe those of us who’ve been around a while, or you can test the waters. But I’m confident you’ll eventually come to the same conclusion